I continue working in the realm of shadow and sound, voices lost on the transparent wind of change in a world of virtual silence where dust gathers and memories of those long gone linger like the fragrance of dead blooms, promises broken and sorrows that fill the ocean of time like hollow boats of dead souls singing as they drift toward infinite horizons of lost suns and misted moon beyond the portal of comprehension, space and spirits ascending to the music of clocks counting out the moments of life remaining, uncertain of what tomorrow will ever bring and not really caring anymore.   Yet I do continue to try, to understand and to improve.  I work at piano and art, reading when I can and working for those I can, to help those in need and to find purpose through kindness and good deeds.  I shall always try to do a better job and give of myself what I can.  I like to believe that this world can be a better place in which to live if we all try to accept others and respect boundaries. 

    Today marks the 3rd year since the end of a relationship I had grown to know for nearly 3 decades.  I lament it ending.  I conclude for now with remembrance of a group of people that once greeted me and now are distant specters of a former life.  I have no regrets.  I would do it all again without a moments hesitation.  Being part of a family for nearly 3 decades taught me many lessons and made me realize that one must work to achieve fulfillment.  I worked without hesitation and will give myself a passing grade in effort.  I did not do everything perfectly.  I doubt one ever could. 

   I wish to thank those of my former family who showed me so many unknown vistas, new horizons and ideas.   I learned to love, to care, to accept and always try to find a way to overcome all obstacles.  I remain steadfast in the belief of marriage, love and friendship.  It was for me a significant achievement to be there when I was needed and to care for all who asked for my help.  I have no regrets other than I did not listen better.  Perhaps in the next life I will do so.

    With this, I depart for midnight piano practice in the House of Blue, with 3 black cats and a little dog named Pip.  When you feel down and sorrow overflows, turn to music and poetry.  Turn to the kindness of a pet or to fiction for all these can remove pain in good time.  And if possible, seek help when you need it whether through a higher power, prayer, therapy or friendship.  I continue on in my Halloween Boat.  Goodnight, and know that ship I sail on the horizon will always continue forward, churning the waves and leaving in her wake a sea of magic and odd hopes.